TEETH.

10292007
There has been something I've wanted to put into words and just haven't been able to, and while I still can't, I'm going to try.

Eman brought it to my attention the other day about how confusing I am, how awfully vague I am just about everything. This is true, you read it here. Though, I'll admit that I knew this and most of the vagueness here is the result of censoring but still. This is who I am. Maybe I'm vague because I don't know what I want. Maybe I'm vague because I'm scared. This in itself is goddamn vague.

I have decided that I'm just wrong to get involved with the other gender. I'm not trying to complain this one out to its max, but as far as I can tell, there is no happy medium here. Either I somehow get attached and completely screwed in the end (and hate myself for it) OR somehow totally mislead the other and hurt them in the end (and hate myself for it). There really is no way for me to not hate myself afterwards. So, you'd think that I'd do myself a favor, but I haven't yet. Maybe I will.

Recent tests have shown that I'm going to have to make changes in my diet and exercise (I'm dying) (I'm overdramatic), so I might as well make it all around. This time, I'm actually going to have to change SOMEthing, for the health and not self-satisfaction. It wouldn't hurt if I stopped being a selfish, attention hungry bitch too.

10282007
This weekend has been weird. So many things have gone wrong, I wish there were some rights.

Last night I had a dream that involved me telling you that I liked you on accident. Maybe I was drunk. I'm never drunk. But mostly, I think this happened because I could be missing you. I guess if I had reason to be missing you.

Let's say weird shit, Natasha!

Whatever. I have a test tomorrow that I haven't started studying for yet and today is my day to get PUMPED. LET'S DO THIS.

10242007
October is almost at its end and with two more months to go, I am just realizing that I forgot all about my resolutions. Good job Natasha, on becoming that better person. The summer changes didn't follow through and with only two months left, I will just have to alter the resolutions for self-satisfaction. That's all this is, self-satisfaction.

OH, but this weekend, Brittany will be back in ATX to visit, with company this time! Natalie's birthday is Saturday! This weekend can only equal fun, that is, until Sunday arrives and I go to work and study for my Monday test. Weekend, please come sooner.

10222007
My mother wanted me to upload some images to the internet so she could see them so I figure I might as well link them here. They all are on facebook, so it's nothing new to you facebook go-ers. FLICKR.

I think my sleepiness is finally kicking in, after having woken up at four-thirty this morning. I did, however, doze in the car and in class a little. Oh yeah, the trip home was good. I needed it.

OH, today's temperature (not weather, I could do without the rain) was amazing. People in the ETC were wearing their skull caps already. It's only fifty degrees outside, for one day only, no need to freak out. This is Texas' reaction to colder weather. It's hilarious!

10202007
As much as I wanted to avoid this, my desktop is now running Microsoft Vista and because I only have the minimum 512mb RAM, I feel it is running a bit slow. Surprisingly, and despite the fact that it only gave me the option to not save my files, all of my files were put into a windows.old folder. Fixing my computer became some huge process of asking just about everyone I know for advice, going to the IT help desk, and making a Windows XP boot disk on six floppies. I guess the good news it that my harddrive isn't just broken like it was last time (five months ago). I do think that there might've been some sort of virus that permanently corrupted my picture files, but everything else seems to be working just fine. Now, I am running a virus scan!

I am going back to Grand Prairie this evening and will be back Monday morning. It's a little weird to me how much I do miss my parents, but I do and I feel bad about how they have an empty nest. My dad was home alone on the evening of his birthday! Also, it'll be very weird to visit home without Nina in that room down the (tiny) hall.

Let's make the best of this Saturday by cleaning the apartment and start studying for that (godawful) test Monday evening. Here goes nothing.

10162007
Note to self:
stop banging your wrists into things and bruising
stop running your knees into things and scraping
stop looking so pissed off and stressed all the time
FIND YOUR WINDOWS CD BECAUSE THE DESKTOP OPERATING SYSTEM WON'T BOOT
FIND YOUR WINDOWS CD BECAUSE THE DESKTOP OPERATING SYSTEM WON'T BOOT
FIND YOUR WINDOWS CD BECAUSE THE DESKTOP OPERATING SYSTEM WON'T BOOT

If it's decent outside tomorrow after class, I think I'll go to the park to swing again. If anyone is up for park swinging, I'm there!

10152007
I don't think I will ever stop listening to Wilco's Yankee Foxtrot Hotel. So many good lines, so much good!
School is kicking my ass.

10112007
This is what happens when I feel like cutting my hair but not actually being able to go get my hair cut.

(picture)

At some point when trying to straighten them, I changed clothes. I look like I'm two different people; I am a gemini. So, does cutting off about five inches of bangs equal to making me look five years younger? I hope not. Now I want to go shopping. I am such a girl. Also, why am I so goddamn tan? Tan in the way that I am not that tan. (I am not usually this vain.)

10102007
The co-op doesn't sell SD cards nor did the person I asked know what SD cards were. Go co-op! I was really just hoping that I could blow the rebate money on one instead of my actual money. A 32mb SD card will not do.

It's weird how you can convince yourself into thinking certain things. Over time of repeatedly telling yourself something, it'll eventually become true. This reminds me of the period between high school and college. There were a lot of things I told myself, but I can't remember what they were. I wish I had my spirals with me.

I am listening to Girl Talk's Night Ripper. Too Deep.
BAM! I'm over it.

10072007
Don't worry too much about school and know how to party. That's what the random international relations navy guy told me last night. Actually, he told me that I should hit sixth street every weekend. Look, I'm doing what I can.

Yesterday, I was awake for a solid twenty-two hours straight (except for the bit that I dozed a little in the car on the way to downtown). That is the longest I have been awake in ... forever, probably. At least I enjoyed every part of it. The grocery store is so much better early in the morning; I hate pushing my way through aisles. Sometimes I feel guilty about eating all that cream cheese Einstein's puts on the bagles, so I wipe it off with my finger. Cleaning the apartment doesn't really take that long because it's so damn tiny. I have forgotten that I've been away from Brittany for a good month and a half; it was just yesterday we spent ALLOURTIME together. The food coma didn't last as long as I figured and I was later (much later) wishing I packed grapes in my purse. My spiderhouse coffee was kind of gritty. The party only had FIVE white people and when people left for downtown, we were three of the five girls left. Airforce and Navy boys chatted us up downtown (until we got kicked out of the bar) because I bet they were begging to pick up some ladies. We were not looking to be picked up, but hey! thanks for the drinks! I ended my twenty-two hours NOT getting sick while looking sunburned. GOODJOBNATASHA.

I had another food coma today. I don't think it can possibly be good to have two in one weekend.
I still don't understand how girls can keep their long hair down and bangs so neat and dry in such hot conditions. I hate you for not being sweaty like me, but I don't care. I do things like wipe my greasy crumby hands on my pants.

THE DARJEELING LIMTED. Wes Anderson's newest. If I can't manage to find someone to see it with me, I will go Nina-style and see it by myself Friday. Only she saw it today and doesn't have to wait

Oh, and Natasha needs a costume idea for halloween this year. If I were part of a couple, I'd want to be Margaret Yang and Max Fischer.

10052007
It's been a long week and I'm really effing tired. and totally in need of a shower. Hurray for showers in the afternoon. I don't care about any of this OU stuff, I am just expecting a really good weekend. (my girl brittany is totally coming to town and there will be partial fsfs happenings again!)

10012007
The following are Natasha's week plans:
~~Mechatronics homework~~
~~Acoustics homework~~
~~Mechatronics test~~
~~Memo #2 due~~ HELL YES.
~~Laundry (whites too!)~~
~~Receive my jeans in the mail!~~ They should be at the twin's.
~~Brittany visits ATX?~~ !!! She should move here.
~~Fun?~~ I LOVE my girls.
~~Al Gore!~~

JEEZ, it creeps the hell outta me when Gravy Train!!!! comes up on the party shuffle. These songs probably still make me blush.